I didn't want to come back here again;
Thought I could control it, your heart I want to mend.
This lust I thought it had died;
You crept up on me, I can't control this no matter how I try.
I know I am being played;
Yet I eat it up, like I am starving to be betrayed.
I don't want this longing it eats away at me;
It is never enough; everything my eyes want to see.
Tease and deny I thought that was my job;
You take it to a new art, it leaves me feeling robbed.
It is really not your fault;
It's all in my head, my own neurotic assault.
I will never get what I want from you;
This feeling isn't mutual, that much I know is true.
Still I give you what you want;
I get no reaction, no matter what I flaunt.
I can't read you I don't have a clue;
You intentions are vague, narrow is the view.
Why on earth do you make me so hot;
I've got better men, they give my ego a shot.
Never once have you acted like they do;
How they lust for my body, if you only knew.
I don't think I appeal to you in that way at all;
You are not physically attracted to me, you put up a wall.
What you want is my mind and the way I speak;
I am never shy, I have what you seek.
Though I am a woman I think you treat me like a man;
I am trying to show you the difference, make you understand.
While I can treat you rough and tough;
My love is tender, I have more than enough.
Why did I get on this crazy ride once more;
It won't end well, I know the score.
I wish you could open up and just be real;
Let me see inside, I want to know how you really feel.
Filled with angst never satisfied;
You can give me everything, by deciding not to hide.