After reading a wonderful story the other day on this site ( Vanilla, by WinkWink19), I gave what she had written some thought. She had written about the life she and her future husband would have. I say future because this was written from her head and heart, it is in no ways meant to rebut what she wrote or to disagree with her. I think she will find that man someday and live the life she described. Her story was not only sexual but detailed what alot of us feel long before we ever say I do.I encourage you to read it, but this story is about the choices we make, and for better or worse, stay with throughout our lives.
I had to stop on the way home from work to pick up some buns for dinner, dashing into a supermarket closer to work than to my home. After getting them and a few other munchies I found a line to stand in, as they were all pretty full. Thats when I saw her, standing along her cart unloading groceries onto the belt. She was probably a foot shorter than I was, with long black hair that went down to her waist. The black jogging suit she wore showed off the curves of her body in a style of woman I adore. I figured even though I only had a few items, Id stay in this line.
I watched her from the rear as she finished emptying her cart, it appeared she was shopping for a family, then I saw the ring on her left hand. It was then , she turned around and not seeing a cart, bumped into me as she was reaching for something behind her.
" Ohh , Im sorry" she said, " I was just trying to get a People Magazine."
I took one out of the rack and handed it to her. Our eyes met briefly, she smiled as she thanked me and put the mag in the belt. Her smile, so sweet and beautiful, her eyes dazzling and dark, which looked they could see thru an inch of steel.
"You dont have much, would you like to go in front of me? she said.
"No,its fine,Im in no rush,but thanks for asking"
Now maybe she thought I was just being nice or if she would have took me upon the offer if it was her, Ill never know as the clerk started to ring up her things. I continued to look her over, not leering but admiring her body , her hair as she pulled a card to make her purchases, when the bagger asked if shed like a hand taking her things out to her car. She said yes, and like that, I watched her leave the store.
Now, I wasnt trying to pick her up or to get her number or to stalk her, Ive been married for nearly 20 years and have never cheated on my wife. Im not saying that like Im proud of the fact, isnt that what people are suppose to do when they marry someone? But like alot of us, I do have the feeling of "What If?"
I took that feeling outside to the parking lot as I saw her again, the clerk loading her truck, which was in the same lane as mine. I walked slowly to my truck just so I could get one more glimpse of her, the breeze blowing her hair about. She got into her truck, I did the same, and by luck I ended up behind her at the street. But when she turned left and I made a right turn, I knew that moment was over, but my mind raced on thinking about her as I drove home, until someone on sportstalk radio said something that jarred my mind back into reality.
As I pulled onto my street and pulled into my drive, I saw my wife, standing there chatting with a neighbor. She smiled and gave me a big wave as I parked my truck. Glad to see me home after another day. My wife isnt a bad person whatsoever, she loves me unconditionally, I love her as well, though over the years things have settled into a routine. No one ever thinks it will happen to them, but it does, for better or worse.
That night went as most do at our house, dinner, maybe sometime outside before it gets dark, television, then off to bed. During the week for the most part, this is usually where the day ends, the sexual aspect of our relationship not like it had been when we were younger. But that night I laid there, thinking about that woman. What if we had met 23 years ago?? a year before I met my wife.
"As she pulled into the driveway in her truck I came out to help her with the bags. My eyes so happy to see her after a day of work. We'd have a quick kiss as passed each other laden down with bags. But after everything was inside, Id put my arms around her from behind, kissing her neck, my hands starting to caress her breasts thru her top. She'd moan softly as I told her we still had a few moments before that schoolbus would be out front of the house. The next moment would find us on the couch in the den........a pair of black jogging pants on the floor along with a pair of red panties, my jeans alongside them. Her legs high up in the air, her feet over my shoulders as my cock slid in and out of her soaking wet pussy. It was great to still be able to have this after all these years. Both of us moaning as we both came, hard and fast, dressing and cleaning up before our youngest came through the door. Later, when the kids were asleep, shed drag me off to be so we can complete "what we had started", as she likes to say."
As I thought about this I found my hand running over the front of my shorts. Then I rolled onto my side and gently started to fondle my wifes ass, then moving my hand in front of her pajamas. She woke from her sleep as I start to remove her top, she smiled at was about to happen, a rarity during the week for us. What she didnt know as, that I had started to rub and suck on her breasts,playing with her wonderfully hard nipples, it wasnt her I was thinking about, it was that woman I saw today. I know I cant be the only person that does this, and it stinks to know you have to resort to things like this to satisfy the woman you love. But I kept kissing,my lips and mouth moving lower down her stomache til I found myself tasting her pussy for quite sometime that night, finishing with a good quick fuck,. We layed there a bit, kissed and fell asleep, but it was that woman at the store, who I had only seen for less time than it takes to fill your gas tank, that had gotten me to this moment tonite.
I think we all have the idea that in our youth we will live the lives we dream about, and I admire those that can acheive that throughout their lives, but alot of us let the choices make themselves I beleive, settling into lives that may or may not make us happy and complete.Its not a bad thing for most of us, for some its a life they wouldnt wish on anyone else.But I think that those of us that have found this website, for better or worse, have a mind that creates a place we can go to escape the normality of what weve created for ourselves. I know I will never cheat on my wife, and some have told me Im missing out and not making myself happy. But I think sometimes making those around you happy, even if it means a loss for you, is what life ends up being. Im not sad withmy life, but I'll always have the "What If?".
So there you have it,if Im just by myself in these thought, so be it, if not, then youre not alone.
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