Marriage the chains that bind the heart and soul, some of them are great and loving they last for years the golden years. We have all heard that some are not so great or loving...this was my case, yes people I am telling a story of MY LIFE.
I do not normally share such things but I am officially escaping. I am moving out. I have not told him this yet. I have no clue how he will react. I am a bit scared of it. Otherwise I am elated for my chains that bound got heavier each year 23 to be sure! I have had those chains chaft and hurt me and in ways I can only keep to myself and not share with anyone unless they touch my soul. I can not talk easily of some things that man has put me through and I do not just mean physically but mentally and emotionally and even verbally. The physical bruises heal but the others, they last years and leave scars.
I have found someone who has helped me make this decision and it has been easier since he has been in my life. I want to thank him and give a shout to him but he is a private person and I will respect that. He knows I love him though. I know he does.
I love him in all levels but utmost as a friend before all else he has given me the strength to fly free. Given me the feeling I am worth something alone on my own. And also been there to hold me if I needed him to. He has been the biggest joy this year, and I will never let him forget how much he is loved and appreciated by me.
Too early to really think if I will move on, and marry and be happy in that way. For now I have all I need a new place and my kids and now faith in myself to be strong enough to say I will be Free.