He had seen him a few times over the past few weeks, he was lost. It had been only a few weeks since Kat's death,he had loved her so very much .
Mike didn't know when he had fallen in love with the guy, but he knew that he had. It seemed that Kat had known before he had realized it himself. She had asked him weeks before her passing to look out for Nat and to be there for him. Mike thought he had been careful in not exposing his true feelings around Kat and Nat, but maybe he hadn't been careful enough. A week before she died, Kat asked him to stop by their apartment. This request was nothing new as he had been over there many times when Nat was home and when he hadn't been, but for some reason he knew that this was more than just a coffee and chat with Kat.
She welcomed him into the apartment after his first knock. He couldn't believe that she was dying. Her brown eyes were large and sparkling and her creamy completion and curvaious beauty showed anything but illness. She looked so much younger than her true age. Kat was 13 years older than Nat who was 34 years old. Her once long brown curly hair had fallen out due to the chemo, but now was coming back a deeper brown with red highlight. Wearing it short, only added to her surreal charm.
Mike in his heart understood why Nat loved her so much. Her kindness radiated in her face and she was soo open hearted. He had fallen in love with her too.
Hugging him as he entered the apartment, Kat asked him to come and sit by the fire. It had started to snow the day before and the large picture windows open to a view of the snow and a branch of the Potomac River down below
"Would like some coffee or coco Mike?" Kat asked in her soft sweet voice.
"Whatever you are having is fine, Kat. Look seat down and let me fix that for you." Mike said as he followed Kat into the kitchen.
"It is no problem it all ready or at least the hot water and hot milk are." Kat said as she came out carrying a tray of cookies and sandwiches.
Bringing out the tray of coffee and cups, putting them on the small table near the fire, Mike joined Kat on the sofa. Grabbing the wool throw off the back of the sofa he pulled Kat to him and let her rest against his chest as he covered her with the throw. They sat there for a while just looking at the fire. Mike waited for Kat to speak and knew that when she had finished his world would change.
"Mike I am not good at beating around the bush and I really don't have the time," Kat said as she looked into the fire. Feeling that Mike was going to speak, she rushes to get the rest out.
"Mike do you love Nat?" She asked as she turned to look Mike in the face.
"Please tell me the truth, it is important to me. I need to hear you say it."Kat said as she looked deep into his eyes.
He couldn't lie to her if he had tried; Mike knew that she knew the truth.
"Yes I am in love with Nat and I have been ever since we had met 2 years ago" he said as he his mind with blank with fear of what Kat would say.
"Oh I am soo happy," Kat said as she threw her arms around his neck.
"Please, in spite of whatever he says please just love him. I know that he has feelings for you... I don't know if it is love, but please don't leave him alone. Promise me" Kat said as she looked up into Mikes' face.
"I was worried that I might be wrong and I wanted someone to love him and take care of Nat when I am gone," Kat said in a rush between smiles and tears. In her excitement, she kissed Mike on the lips. The kiss was warm and sweet as he returned in kind. Feeling the warmth from her lips and the rest of her body, as she laid next to him imprinted itself on his soul. Releasing her he looked down into her face as her eyes shone threw tears. His emotions robbed him for the first time in his life of the ability to speak; Mike could only nod yes as he pulled Kat back into the embraces of his arms.
Kat passed away in her sleep with all those around her who loved her two weeks later. Mike was in attendance.
Now standing in the elevator of his apartment Mike looked over at Nat and decided that he had nothing to lose and everything to gain. He was tired of being alone, and hoped that Nat felt the same way. Taking a chance he walked over to Nat and stood in front of him, looking into his grey eyes and with his blue ones. Knowing that they wouldn't be disturbed, he stopped the elevator, Mike turned back to Nat who hadn't move from his spot against the elevator wall.
"I am going out on a limb here, and I hope I will not be out there by myself" Mike said in a whisper as he looked into Nat's eyes for assurance." Do you care for me beyond our friendship?"
Waiting for Nat's response, Mike felt his heart beating in his throat, as he hoped that the response from Nat would not be a total a rejection because he didn't not want to he lose him or their friendship.
Why me, Nat thought to himself? Why would this guy, who has every thing would want me? A man who lost the woman he loved to a disease and who had never been with a man even thought the ideal excited him.
Seeing the confused look in Nat's eyes, Mike took another chance and lean into Nat and kissed him softly on the lips as he looked into his eyes. Lingering for just a moment, to feel the warm of Nat's full lips against his, Mike pulled back slowly unsure what to expect.
My God, Nat thought, Had Mike just kissed Me.??!!!
So many emotions seemed to run threw Nat. Then he remembered what Kat had said to him the last time that they talked;
"Please,love like love will never ever hurt you and never expecting it to come from a safe a place. Some things in life are worth fighting for."
Seeing Mike slowly backing up with the fear of rejection surfacing on his face, Nat reached out and pulled Mike back toward him and this time returned the kiss.
The kiss started softly and quickly developed into a passionate embrace between the two men. Both being of the same height 6 ft tall and roughly the same athletic built they were more than a match for each other physically. Mike couldn't believe what was happening and hoped Nat wouldn't stop not now, knowing that no one would be calling for the elevator. They would not be disturbed as the kiss became more passionate and clothes started coming off.
Stripping Nat of his shirt he slowly licked and sucked a path down to the top of Nat's Levis. Once there Mike opened Nat's jeans to expose his hard cock. He dropped to his knees and with one glance up at Nat, sucked his cock into his hot wet mouth. Mike began to lick and suck Nat as if he wanted to eat him.
Nat thought he was going to go out of his mind because it felt soo damn good. He found that he love the rough way Mike handle him and the way he suck and licked his cock. Pulling his cock out of Mike's hot wet sucking mouth he stepped back and took off the rest of his clothes and shoes. Mike on seeing this did the same. Standing there both of them naked, Mike restarts the elevator. As it climb up to his apartment he pulled Nat to him and embraced him in slow passionate kiss.
They stroke, touch and fingered each other until the elevator stopped and they opened the door to Mike apartment. Once there, Mike led Nat by the hand to the Master bedroom and a very large shower area. Not sure what Mike had in mind, Nat continue to follow his lead. Mike turned on the shower and adjusted the water temp and flow. Then smiling seductively at Nat he led him in. As the steam rose and the water cascaded down their bodies, Mike pushed Nat up against the shower wall. Starting at his neck, Mike laid a path of kisses from there down to his golden brown chest. Taking the time to lavish kisses and sucks on each brown nipple, which were now standing erect. Nat moaned his pleasure
"I can't believe, that this is happening to me," Nat thought as Mike seduced him. He had never been with a man nor ever wanted to be. Kat had talk to him about the possibility of Mike being in love with him, which though was strange he wasn't turned off about it... He knew that Mike was the truest friend and had in his way fallen in love with Kat, something that Nat was glad about.
Kneeling in front of Nat in the shower Mike started to washing him starting at his feet and working up. Sending extra time on Nat's cock and his ass, Mike soaped each in a way making it a sensuous act. Looking up at Nat's face and seeing the look of sexual rapture, he knew that he was on the right track. Kat had been right, but what about afterwards. Mike decided to not let himself think of that, he would deal with that when it came up. Washing him up to his neck, Mike placed his mouth on Nat's sending in his tongue and got an instant reaction. Nat started to suck on his tongue as his hands started to roam Mike's body with soapy hands. Soaping each other did nothing to cool off and neither did the hot shower. Rinsing each other off and heading to the bedroom, Mike sat on the bed first and pulled Nat on to the bed with him. Lying side by side they looked into each others eyes.
Nat took lead this time and turned his body so that they would be both facing each other cock. Nat had never sucked another man's cock nor until today he had never kissed or been kissed by another man. In spite of this he was an ardent lover, and he had explored sexually with Kat as much as two people could. So what he didn't know he could guess at and he knew what pleased him.
Mike cock was long and thick,it lay close to his flat stomach, so as Nat took long wet licks at it from based to tip he held in place with one hand and stroke Mikes balls with the other. Mike rolled back on to his side and started to finger fuck Nat's tight ass hole. Then he put Nat's cock into his mouth and starting sucking hard. Mike did the same to him and they both sucking and fucking each other with a passion. Moving their hips in rhythm to their sucking, both men felt like they were about ready to cum. Mike pull his cock out of Nat's demanding mouth and moved off the bed. Getting behind Nat he pulled him to the edge of the bed and put him on his knees with his ass up in the air. Reaching into his night stand, Mike took out a tube of lubricate and squeezed a large glob in to Nat's asshole. He then started first with 2 fingers then 3. Nat pushed back on to his fingers and moan in pain and pleasure as he kept pulling off and pushing back. Knowing what was coming next, Nat mentally and physically prepared himself. As Mike put the head of his cock into his asshole, Nat spread his legs further a part thus opening his asshole a little more.
"Just relax Nat this will hurt some and I will go slow... as slow as you need." Mike said as he stroked his back and kissed his neck as he perpared to slid his cock into Nat's asshole.
"Ok," Nat whispered and tried to relax his body even more.
Mike pushed the tip of his cock into Nat and waiting for him to adjust to him. Little by little he pushed in and out each time going in deeper. Nat response was to moan a little of both pleasure and pain. On the last push, Mike shoved his cock all the way in up to his balls. Cupping his body to Nat's bend over body on the bed, he massage, kissed and licked Nat's back and shoulders to relax him.
"Are you ok Nat?" Mike asked, as he slowly moved his cock in and out .
"Yes now just fuck me, help me to forget if only for a while... please, just fuck me," Nat begged him.
Mike started to push in and out as Nat matched his rhythm. Faster and faster they went with each push, Nat felt as if Mike was pushing away the pain of his lose. Nat started to cry as Mike held him as he fucked away his pain. Both came at the same time, Nat was now in the rapture of tears and sexual pleasure... the bitter and the sweet. After unwrapping themselves they laid together in spoon fashion, with Mike spooning behind Nat who had drifted off into a deep sleep, finally. In the weeks since Kat death, Nat hadn't slept any more than 1 hour a day. The best thing of all was that Nat let Mike hold him while he slept. Mike decided that he would let tomorrow take care of itself.
Just as he fell off into sleep he felt someone smooth his hair back and kiss his forehead. Thinking that it was Nat he opened his eyes and then he saw her, standing there smiling down at them. Kat looked as lovely and loving as she always had. She smile at him and then at Nat who she leaned over and kissed on the lips. He said her name in his sleep and snuggle closer to Mike who held him closer. As Mike drifted off to sleep he heard her say
Thank you .... Thank you ... thank you ....as she drifted away ..