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Twisted
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You are a twisted individual I know it is because you were raped;
But you went back for more you didn't even try to escape.
You turned it into a little secret lifestyle that you had;
Always hiding it from everyone because they would think it's bad.
I know you were influenced by pornography at such an innocent age;
It formed your secret desires so that you could not behave.
What that older man did to you there is no excuse;
If you had been more mature you would have recognized the abuse.
I suppose in a way I was just as bad;
Gave you the same things but like you had never had.
I know I made you do some things that you might not have wanted to;
But you kept coming back for more; you loved it I know that is true.
Now you have got yourself stuck living in a great big lie;
To have the things you want you must always wear a disguise.
Maybe you have grown up and really changed your ways;
Become a family man that forever more will always behave.
Somewhere deep inside is that little piece of you that I own;
I wonder if it will ever come to light because of all the seeds I've sewn.
All the images that I planted in your mind;
I think you will remember after quite of bit of time.
You will become a distant memory of a lost desire;
The one that I longed so deeply for who set my heart on fire.
Twisted are the emotions you produce in me;
Conflicted and intense, a range far too wide to see.
I think I mostly hate you for being so untrue and incredibly cruel;
But part of me always loves you and lets you play me for a fool.
I will never know how you could "Dear John" letter me and then just disappear;
Having the things I know come true to you is my biggest fear.
How could you tell everyone that you were about to leave?
When at the same time you said you wanted to spend some time with me.
I really can't figure it out why you played me so;
I did everything in my power so that you wouldn't go.
I just could not take another promise being broken;
Even if my heart was trapped by all the words you had spoken.
Now that you are gone for good you are like a decease that has infected my mind;
No matter what ever I do there is no cure that I can find.
You were just no good for me I need someone who is real;
Someone who is considerate of all the things that I feel.
Someone who appreciates my love and does not twist it out of shape;
Who cherishes me as I do them for all the passion we create.
I am so vexed and troubled from unfinished business with you;
You twisted my heart and torn it apart but I don't think you have a clue.
My broken heart has turned to stone sometimes I hate your guts;
You have proven to me without a doubt you are just a man whore slut.
You were born to be my bottom and I would top you like you have never had;
Thinking of my lost desires for you and how you treated me always makes me sad.
I gave all the things I wanted to give to you to another fine man;
Though he has a girl too he is open with me and he always understands.
Includes me in his life does not try to hide or be evasive and cold;
He has proven to me waiting around for nothing just gets seriously old.
Watching the part of you I loved die was like experiencing a sudden death;
I knew the beauty that was once there but now there is nothing left.
I wonder if you ever come around even just to look at my pictures you loved;
I hope you are safe being looked down upon by your guardian angel from up above.
It has been one year that has gone past since I have heard anything at all from you;
My emotions are so twisted but I guess it is just pointless you will never be able to be true.
Not to yourself or anyone else because you hide who you really are;
Forget about you is what I must do but I will always love you from afar.
You told me you didn't go by Steve that your name was Stephen;
Though I suspect it was all just a lie everything you told me I believed in.
The strongest emotions you produce in me you know are love and hate;
All twisted together in a tangled mess but I guess that is just my fate.....
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