There it was flashing on my screen...........your name was there. I hadn't seen it in well over a year. I remember a time when I would pray to see that name flash across my screen........... and now there it was.
We hadn't come together in a really long time. We hadn't even chatted on line in like forever. But I hadn't forgotten how I had felt that one night that we had. That one night that we had come together. It had been our first and only meeting. I had been so nervous and you had been incredibly sweet. You hadn't coerced me into anything, you had let me take my time and make up my own mind.
I can't tell you how many times I have replayed that night in my mind.How every detail remains etched in my memory. I remember just how you looked as I saw you that first time,relaxed, confident and incredibly handsome. I remember your touch, the gentleness, the patience, the desire and the fire. I remember your colonge and the scent of soap on your skin after your shower. I remember the feel of your hands, strong, gentle and very masculine.
How often I have wanted to repeat that night, to replay those first moments over again and to feel the way my stomach did cartwheels as you took me into your arms. To feel your wanting and desire all over again.
I have that wanting feeling again, that feeling that started this whole thing so long ago. It had taken me months to get over it. And even now the guilt is still there. I guess it aways will be.
As I watch, the screen continue to flash, my memory flashes back.You had picked me up and carried me to the bedroom, cradling me, as your soft kisses trailed across my lips.Sighs and murmers, long slow caresses, quiet sips and tastes. Your hands had aroused me, but they never hurried.
As your mouth had found my breasts my body had arched back. Your breathing had grown ragged, as your hand slipped between my thighs.I want to watch you go over the edge you had said. Your fingers began to play over my heat as your breath came faster. Pleasure, panic and excitement had ripped through me as you watched me with those incredible eyes .
"Now!" was all I could say as you entered me. We moved together riding with long , deep strokes. You had held me gently, kissing my lips, my throat , my face. Yes it had been an incredible nite so long ago........I remembered it like it was yesterday.
Should I answer the chat? Should I let it begin again? I know only too well the pitfalls of this relationship. But I am human, I am consumed with desire again like no other. I type in "Hey"....... press enter....... and wait for your response.......... "Hey how are ya?" the screen flashes back.